Princezzitha de ana ii mia: here...

jueves, 22 de julio de 2010

here...

A punto de la sobredosis...
prometi dejar las drogas, todos los farmacos, todo lo que me causara dependencia...
pero no es asi de facil...
En un mundo como este, un mundo de mierda con gente hipocrita por todos lados...
Es dificil...
Tantas cosas en tan poco tiempo, perdi al niño que pensaba que era el amor de mi vida...
Se fue de aqui... Se fue de este mundo... lo extraño...
Eso fue hace un tiempo ya, pero no lo habia contado...
Conoci a alguien mas... Es genial... pero no lo se...
y ademas estoy gorda de nuevo, mas gorda que la ultima vez que escribi...
Mi pesos se ah pasado llendo y viniendo...
Por mas qe trato de bajarlo no se va por mucho tiempo y todo por culpa de la maldita comida...
Subi de 87 a 110!!! y Baje de esos mismos askerosos 110 a 97... y ahora estoy en 95... horrible!!
Pensar que comenze qn 140 y ahora estoy tan cerca de ellos de nuevo...
Gracias a Dios que no se notan tanto por mi estatura y complexion y todo eso...
Pero yo lo se!
Yo se que son 95 horribles y espantosos kilos!
Necesito deshacerme de ellos en 1 mes...
Necesito deshacerme de (por lo menos) 20kilos!!!
5kg por semana!!!
Y saben que? Lo hare!!!
por que tengo la fuerza necesaria y lo lograre!!!
Con ese cocktelazo de sibu, fat block, carb clock y algunas tachas....
Me siento algo mareada, ansiosa, feliz...
hoy no lo junte con alcohol, no sera tan graB
Ya no consumo nada que me de hambre, eso es algo... Deje esas drogas por lo menos jajaja
Oh wow.... 15pastillas qn nestea jajaja veo la lata y pienso como me tome esas pastillas qn 222ml de té(:
Me voy, kuidense y digan no a las drogas...
por lo menos a las que den hambre!!!!

kisses&Blesses by P

2 comentarios:

sof22 de julio de 2010, 14:19
linda es buenoo qe aun noo te hayas cerrado por completo i qe en ti habite la esperanza i las ganas de bajar
i es qe eso es lo bueno, porqe loo necesario para conseguir lo qe qeremos, son las ganas
i tuu las tienes
noo te desanimes i sigue
qe tuu puedes
suerte!!!
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Princess_a29 de julio de 2010, 11:36
Te doy todo mi apoyo y te comprendo,
yo empecé con 100 kilos, bajé a 80 y ahora ando en 85-87! uno se siente decepcionada cuando no cumple sus metas pero algo siempre nos impulsa a seguir...
Deja las drogas, los momentos en que no se las consume son los más depresivos y donde se puede cometer cualquier error!
Se fuerte! Ponte metas pequeñas porque sino al no cumplir las grandes te deprimirás mal...
Yo ahora estoy empezando un ayuno, espero lograr 4-5 días!

Suerte con lo que te propongas!
Un abrazo!
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Ser ana es...

*ser fuerte

*tener una meta

*eliminar toda la grasa qué tenga tu cuerpo

*sacrificar tu hambre por tener un cuerpo ideal

*despertar cada día y saber qué tu meta de hoy es NO COMER

*enfrentarnos a las bestias qué nos rodean cuando se dan cuenta de lo que somos

*no ser totalmente aceptadas ante la sociedad, pero sentirnos bien y aceptarnos entre nosotras

*navegar horas en Internet, para buscar información de ana, o solo para encontrar algo qué nos de fuerzas

*sentir o escuchar crujir tu pancita y sentirte orgullosa de ser ana

*despertar y mirarte las ojeras y alegrarte por qué es signo de qué estás bajando de peso

*ser feliz al final del día por qué no comiste nada

*probarte aquél pantalón qué no te cerraba y ver qué ahora te queda flojo

*saber mas qué nadie acerca de nutrición

*mirar una revista o modelo e imaginarte con ese cuerpazo

*sonreír al sentirte un huesito

*tener un gran secreto

*querer darle a tu novio un regalo: ser mas delgada

*no tener nada en el estómago

*usar una pulsera roja en tu mano izquierda

*odiar 100% la grasa ( mas que a nada a la comida... maldito veneno)

*cuando el hambre se vuelve algo satisfactorio

*cuando comer es un pecado qué nos hace llorar

*cuando tienes hambre y te fumas un cigarro

*cuando siempre te ves gorda aunque estés hiperdelgada

*saber qué cuando necesitas ayuda tienes muchísimas amigas en la red qué te apoyan

*hacerte una perforación o gastar mucho dinero en ropa qué no te quede, para verte obligada a bajar y poder mostrarlo o usarla

*tener siempre una botella de agua en la mano

*tener siempre un chicle o pastillita sin azucar

*ser la mejor en pretextos y mentiras en cuanto a las comidas

*sentirte tan liviana como una pluma

*despertarte todas las mañanas y tocarte la panza a ver si estás mas delgada

*ser esclava de la báscula y de la cinta métrica

*cantar una buena canción cuando estás deprimida

*un estilo de vida

Ana/Mia

.Eating Disorder Survey. Created by derminster and taken 9382 times on Bzoink
General
Age?:	17 years old
Height?:	1.70 mts
Weight?:	90kg
Lowest Weight?:	70kg
Highest Weight?:	120kg
What weight do you want to weigh?:	40 kg more
What eating disorder do you have?:	ana and mia
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?:	700 cal
Do you throw up your food on occasion?:	yes
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?:	in many times
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?:	yes, GYM
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?:	yes ):
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?:	yes, 3 days
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?:	that's frequent
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?:	of course
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?:	never
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?:	no
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?:	sometimes
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?:	always!
What part of your body would you change?:	all jaja... my legs
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?:	-10 (:
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?:	sometimes
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?:	always....
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?:	always too
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?:	no....
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?:	not morbidly
Fat grams?:	'bou what?
Calories?:	me??
Are you often tired/fatigued?:	no
Do you feel more energised after eating food?:	of course not
Do you eat meat?:	sometimes
Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.:	jaja yes
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?:	no
Have you ever thrown up blood?:	yes
Is your heart bpm above 49?:	i don't remember...
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?:	yes!
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?:	I think that is all the society
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?:	I'm pro-ana but I don't help the wannas
Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.:	I'm Psychotic jajaja LOL (that not true)
What's your favourite food to eat?:	apples
Favourite drink?:	water
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?:	I don't know.... That's my life...
Do you want to recover?:	some-day
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lo qe yo creo

algunas creen qe para ser ana debes pesar 10kg, para mi ser ana es llegar a tu concepto de perfeccion, si para ti ser perfecta es pesar 10, 20, 30kg esta bien asi lo decidiste, para mi es llegar a mi peso ideal, para algunas mas es pesar 45, 50, 55kg etc, kada kien tiene su concepto de perfeccion, kada kien sabe qe es ser perfecta, no todas podemos pesar lo mismo, yo no puedo pesar lo mismo ke una chavita qe mide 1.50 ii de complexion chikita, ni debo pesar lo de una chava de 2 metros ii de copmplexion grande, kada kien sabe ke es ser perfecta, tu te puedes kerer parecer a una chava de revista, xq eso es perfeccion para tiy para otras, pero para mi y muchas mas perfeccion es ser feliz con migo misma y sentirte bien con lo qe eres....

mi siké

Trastorno	Grado
Paranoide	ALTO
Esquizoide	BAJO
Esquizotipico	MODERADO
Histrionico	ALTO
Antisocial	MODERADO
Narcisista	MUY ALTO
Limite	ALTO
Obsesivo	ALTO
Dependiente	BAJO
Evitador	ALTO

Test de transtorno de la personalidad

57 reasons why you shouldn't eat

01. You will be FAT if you eat today, just put it off one more day.
02. You don't NEED food.
03. Fat people can't fit everywhere.
04. Guys will be able to pick you up without struggling.
05. You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight holding you back.
06. People will remember you as "the beautiful thin one".
07. If someone has to describe you, they'll say "oh she weighs like 90, 100 lbs".
08. Guys will want to get to know you, not laugh at you and walk away.
09. Starving is an example of excellent willpower.
10. You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
11. Bones are clean and pure. Fat is dirty and hangs on your bones like a parasite.
12. If you eat then you'll look like those disgusting, fat, ghetto and trailer-trash hookers on Jerry Springer.
13. The models that everyone claims are beautiful, the spitting image of perfection, are any of them fat? NO!
14. Too many people in the world are obese.
15. People who eat are selfish and unrealistic.
16. Only fat people are attracted to fat people. Do you want pigs to like you because you are one of them.
17. Anyone can have "inner beauty" but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.
18. You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.
19. Only thin people are graceful.
20. If you slap a fat person you can see a shockwave ripple over their skin. That's disgusting.
21. Do you want people to say "for gods sake get off me you're crushing me!!!" or "you are sooo light" ???
22. Underweight aka perfect body.
23. Ballerina? or beanbag?
24. I want to be light enough so a helium balloon could lift me and carry me to the clouds.
25. I want to walk in the snow and leave no footprints.
26. Starve off the parts you don't need. They're ugly and they drag you down.
27. Nothing cant be fixed with hunger and weight loss.
28. Saying "no thanks" to food is saying "yes please" to THIN!!!
29. Fat people are so huge, yet people look away from them as if they don't exist.
30. The only time people do notice a fat person is when they get in the way of that beautiful thin girl walking by (ok that sounds really horrible i know.)
31. Have you ever seen a person NOT notice a walking skeleton.
32. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
33. Is food more important that happiness in life? I think not!
34. Eating is conforming to everyone else's expectations.
35. When you start to get dizzy and weak you're almost there.
36. Hunger is your friend and it won't betray you like food.
37. Food is mean and sneaky. It tricks you into eating it and it works on you from the inside out making you fat, bloated, ugly and unhappy.
38. Think of anorexia as your secret weapon.
39. If you can name one reason to be fat, I'll name a million and one to be thin.
40. Thin people look good in ANY kind of clothes.
41. Food rots your teeth.
42. Puffy cheeks, double chins and thick ankles-- aren't attractive.
43. Fatty areas stretch and sag as you get older.
44. Ever seen the arms of a fat person wave hello or goodbye?
45. Eating little to nothing saves you money!
46. The average (middle class) American wastes OVER $8,000 a year on FOOD ALONE...it goes in one end and out the other. That sure is a lot of fat! No wonder so many Americans are obese and overweight!
47. Fat people make their country look bad.
48. Big people sweat more and they smell bad.
49. Fat people die earlier.
50. You'll be the envy of all the other girls.
51. All of the guys will want you.
52. You're less likely to get food poisoning.
53. You won't be exposed to all the chemicals and pesticides they put in food today.
54. You won't get sweaty on hot days.
55. The word fat will only apply to you in a sarcastic way.
56. No one wants to see a fat person dance.
57. Beauty Queen? or Dairy Queen?

Princezzitha de ana ii mia

jueves, 22 de julio de 2010

here...

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Ser ana es...

Ana/Mia

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ronald

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