pezimamente mal, hoy comi demaziado... hoy me decidi a no comer, pero por azares del destino a la salida de la escuela me compre unas papas fritas, ni idea de por que....
y pues aunqe no me las termine si me comi la mitad de la bolsa, llegando a casa mi mamá trajo carne y un poco de chilaquiles y me los comi (fue lo de 1 bolillo en total) y me los comi a pezar de ser menos de lo que he comido antes me siento pesimo, gorda y horrible, pero en especial gorda... ademas hoy en la television en un programa llamado "Lo que callamos las mujeres" (aca en Mexico) trato de una chavita qe tenia Ana y mi padre le dejo aii mientras estaba mi hermano y su esposa aqui y yo sintiendome peor, para esto cuando lelgo mi hermano me trajo un chocolate y como era hershey's cookies and cream no me resisiti y me lo comi...Por la mañana logre no desayunar, pero mi mejor amigo encontro en mi cuaderno de mate tooodas mis fraces y cosas que escribo de anamia y de el niño qn el qe traigo el andamos-pero-no, cada vez qe veiia su nombre (qomo siempre) decia ese wey, el menso ese, etc.. y cuando leiio una qe decia "Soy Feliz" me dijo no es cierto y me qede asi de :/ no sabia qe decir...despues una de mis mejores amigas se pelio qn su novio y ahi empeoro todo pq no sabia qe decir... y creo qe por eso fue la bolsa de papas...
digo despues de todo lo qe trague me pongo a pensar, qe simplemente estar metida aqi no es vida.... y es mas bien para las wannas o chavitas qe aun puedan salir, pq despues es demaziado tarde....
digo antes podia haces las 3 comidas y colaciones, podian ser comidas grandes y me sentia mal pero por la indigestion no por engordar ni mucho menos!
Podia ir con una nutricionista (nutriologa) y comer bien sin preokuparme, solo pensando en que iva a bajar...
pero no pueso dejarlas, ellas son ya mi vida y las quiero aqui, en mi vida...
y obvio qe no lo es, estar praktikamente muriendo de tristeza por comer, sintiendote sola, ser culpable por comer 100kalorias mas de lo qe te propusiste.
Es horrible.... asi qe no se pq decidi llegar hasta aqi...
pero se que lograre ser feliz a pezar de todo.
Todas llegaremos a nuestra meta...
XOXO
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| .*Eating Disorder Survey*. Created by derminster and taken 9382 times on Bzoink | |
| General | |
| Age?: | 17 years old |
| Height?: | 1.70 mts |
| Weight?: | 90kg |
| Lowest Weight?: | 70kg |
| Highest Weight?: | 120kg |
| What weight do you want to weigh?: | 40 kg more |
| What eating disorder do you have?: | ana and mia |
| In Depth | |
| How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: | 700 cal |
| Do you throw up your food on occasion?: | yes |
| Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: | in many times |
| Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: | yes, GYM |
| Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: | yes ): |
| Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: | yes, 3 days |
| Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: | that's frequent |
| Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: | of course |
| Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: | never |
| Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: | no |
| Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: | sometimes |
| Body Image Q's | |
| Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: | always! |
| What part of your body would you change?: | all jaja... my legs |
| On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: | -10 (: |
| Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: | sometimes |
| Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: | always.... |
| Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: | always too |
| Health/Food | |
| Do you think you eat healthy enough?: | no.... |
| Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: | not morbidly |
| Fat grams?: | 'bou what? |
| Calories?: | me?? |
| Are you often tired/fatigued?: | no |
| Do you feel more energised after eating food?: | of course not |
| Do you eat meat?: | sometimes |
| Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.: | jaja yes |
| Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: | no |
| Have you ever thrown up blood?: | yes |
| Is your heart bpm above 49?: | i don't remember... |
| Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: | yes! |
| Other Stuff | |
| Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: | I think that is all the society |
| What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: | I'm pro-ana but I don't help the wannas |
| Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.: | I'm Psychotic jajaja LOL (that not true) |
| What's your favourite food to eat?: | apples |
| Favourite drink?: | water |
| Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: | I don't know.... That's my life... |
| Do you want to recover?: | some-day |
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