puffff! la escuela esta pesadisima, recien ayer qorte qon mi novio y akabo de volver qon mia!
todo eso en tan poqo tiempo!!!
eh estado pensando, que los hombres me han hecho mucho daño y qe es prefible qe me concentre en otras cosas antes qe volver a pensr en un chico, entre esas cosas estan la escuela, ana y mia, esas 3 cosas son prioridades para mi ahora.
qisiera estar mas por aca pero los padres me presionana jaja no pueden ver algo qe digan ana o mia pq se enojan!!!!
es frustrante....
decia recien termine qon "él" y fue por ana y mia, pero sqe se pasa!, no habia nadie en su kza y encargo pizza, le dije qe ya habia qomido pero no me creiio, entonss m dijo qomete una pieza y la agarre y en lo qe el arrazon kzi qon las otras 10 rebanadas yo me termine la parte de arriba de una jeje y se enojo y le dije qe era pq ya habia qomido, despues me llevo a kza y mi madre compro galletas de mantequilla (mis favoritas) y comi una, despues dos, despues 20, helado, leche y comenze a llorar, despues "hable qon mia", el telefono sonaba y yo vomitaba, en eso rapidamente termine y me limpie, de nuevo sono y conteste era el, olvido su chamarra en el comedor y mis padres ya se habian ido, como pude hize para qe no se notara qe akababa de recurrir a mia, el me vio a los ojos y me dijo "-vomitaste verdad?-"
yo le dije qe "-no-"
y el se limito a decir "-si las qieres mas qe a mi debes qedarte qon ellas-"
la verdad me dolio el como lo dijo y simplemente le dije llorando
"-cuando sea lo qe qieres las dejare-"
el dijo "-siempre has sido lo qe qiero-"
y se fue....
lo mire alejarse y solo llore
hablamoz al dia siguiente y me dijo
"-mira niña se qe necesitas mi apoyo pero yo no puedo seguir asi, te amo y me duele ver qe te destruyas pq tmb me destruyes a mi, me gustaria decirte ya no te amo, pero no puedo por que te amo como a nadie, como a ninguna, piensa bien las cosas, se que de la noche a la mañana no saldras de esto, pero podemos conseguir ayuda-"
no pude decir nada, yo seguia llorando
el me dijo "-si no te qieres a ti misma no me puedes qerer, piensalo y hablamos-"
le dije "-entonses aun somos algo-"
y me dijo "-amigos, o el recuerdo, tu decides-"
no se, por mas qe lo amo, creo qe dependo de ana y mia, no las puedo dejar asi, y aunqe lo ame, no puedo, o mas bien no qiero?... no lo se....
bueno realeza me voy
cuidenze
loz qiero
XOXO
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| .*Eating Disorder Survey*. Created by derminster and taken 9382 times on Bzoink | |
| General | |
| Age?: | 17 years old |
| Height?: | 1.70 mts |
| Weight?: | 90kg |
| Lowest Weight?: | 70kg |
| Highest Weight?: | 120kg |
| What weight do you want to weigh?: | 40 kg more |
| What eating disorder do you have?: | ana and mia |
| In Depth | |
| How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: | 700 cal |
| Do you throw up your food on occasion?: | yes |
| Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: | in many times |
| Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: | yes, GYM |
| Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: | yes ): |
| Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: | yes, 3 days |
| Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: | that's frequent |
| Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: | of course |
| Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: | never |
| Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: | no |
| Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: | sometimes |
| Body Image Q's | |
| Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: | always! |
| What part of your body would you change?: | all jaja... my legs |
| On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: | -10 (: |
| Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: | sometimes |
| Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: | always.... |
| Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: | always too |
| Health/Food | |
| Do you think you eat healthy enough?: | no.... |
| Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: | not morbidly |
| Fat grams?: | 'bou what? |
| Calories?: | me?? |
| Are you often tired/fatigued?: | no |
| Do you feel more energised after eating food?: | of course not |
| Do you eat meat?: | sometimes |
| Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.: | jaja yes |
| Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: | no |
| Have you ever thrown up blood?: | yes |
| Is your heart bpm above 49?: | i don't remember... |
| Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: | yes! |
| Other Stuff | |
| Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: | I think that is all the society |
| What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: | I'm pro-ana but I don't help the wannas |
| Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.: | I'm Psychotic jajaja LOL (that not true) |
| What's your favourite food to eat?: | apples |
| Favourite drink?: | water |
| Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: | I don't know.... That's my life... |
| Do you want to recover?: | some-day |
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