me siento la peor persona qe puede estar sobre el planeta, me siento un pedazo de m*ierda sobre el planeta, es frustrante no poder estar qon Ana ii 100pre hecharle la culpa a algo, los examenes, las tareas, los amigos, me estreza, no eh podido durar mas de 1 dia sin comer, parezko un cerdo, estankada en loz 96, un cerdote qe no puede dejar de serlo, lo trato pero siempre haii un algo qe no me lo permite, es mi destino estar asi vdd, me lo merezko por mal karma? no lo se, es la prezion de loz examenes? miz papaz? sentirme tan sola? el miedo? la desesperacion? no lo se, solo se qe necesito hacer algo, necesito volver a estar con ana, con ella me sentia tan bien, ella me ayudaba a no sentirme sola, a intentar ser perfecta.... necesito ayuda, apoyo, y siento qe nadie me entiende... creo qe volvi a la depre... no lo se estoy como en una contradiccion emocional!!! es horrible, estrezante, necesito gritar, sacar todo lo qe tengo... kiero cambiar, necesito cambiar, pero como?, Ana se fue de mi lado, la comida la aleja, crea una barrera de grasa qe la aleja de mi... qiero estar sola pero sentirme apoyada, con alguien qe este ahi para escucharme. Extraño a miz BFF... necezito un abrazo... qiero iorar, pero... no puedo, qiero guardarlo todo pero necesito sacerlo tengo todos los sentimientos guardados al mismo tiempo qe qieren salir pero tambien se qieren guardar...
princezitaz gracias por leer....
las kiero
XOXO
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| .*Eating Disorder Survey*. Created by derminster and taken 9382 times on Bzoink | |
| General | |
| Age?: | 17 years old |
| Height?: | 1.70 mts |
| Weight?: | 90kg |
| Lowest Weight?: | 70kg |
| Highest Weight?: | 120kg |
| What weight do you want to weigh?: | 40 kg more |
| What eating disorder do you have?: | ana and mia |
| In Depth | |
| How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: | 700 cal |
| Do you throw up your food on occasion?: | yes |
| Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: | in many times |
| Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: | yes, GYM |
| Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: | yes ): |
| Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: | yes, 3 days |
| Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: | that's frequent |
| Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: | of course |
| Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: | never |
| Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: | no |
| Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: | sometimes |
| Body Image Q's | |
| Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: | always! |
| What part of your body would you change?: | all jaja... my legs |
| On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: | -10 (: |
| Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: | sometimes |
| Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: | always.... |
| Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: | always too |
| Health/Food | |
| Do you think you eat healthy enough?: | no.... |
| Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: | not morbidly |
| Fat grams?: | 'bou what? |
| Calories?: | me?? |
| Are you often tired/fatigued?: | no |
| Do you feel more energised after eating food?: | of course not |
| Do you eat meat?: | sometimes |
| Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.: | jaja yes |
| Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: | no |
| Have you ever thrown up blood?: | yes |
| Is your heart bpm above 49?: | i don't remember... |
| Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: | yes! |
| Other Stuff | |
| Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: | I think that is all the society |
| What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: | I'm pro-ana but I don't help the wannas |
| Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.: | I'm Psychotic jajaja LOL (that not true) |
| What's your favourite food to eat?: | apples |
| Favourite drink?: | water |
| Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: | I don't know.... That's my life... |
| Do you want to recover?: | some-day |
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